darrenhardman

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Has Death Won?

I live everyday trying to supress ghosts of days gone by
It hurts so bad, some days I pray to die
I want to live and love
But I fear those days are gone
The days of gentleness like a dove
I fear death may have won

May 29, 2011 Posted by | Feelings from war and beyond | , , , , , , , , , , , | 2 Comments

Man I Used To Be

You say things to me like, “You’re mean now.” “You don’t listen to me anymore.” and “You’re not the same.”

You fail to realize that the things I have seen and done were not a video game.

You ask, “What’s wrong?” “Where’s your head?” and “Why don’t you talk to me?”

Did you stop to think that maybe I don’t want you to know what I have done or what eats the inside of me?

Please understand if I don’t tell you the things that draw my attention away.

It’s because the unwelcome thoughts are rising and I am pushing them back to where they need to stay.

If you are already frustrated and disappointed in me, how can I tell you these things and expect you to still love me.

I’m sorry things are hard for me to tell you so you can see.

I am sorry I’m not the loving man I used to be.

May 14, 2011 Posted by | Feelings from war and beyond | , , , , , , , , , , | 10 Comments

Valhalla Tonight

Here I sit, rifle in hand

Killing the natives of a far off land.

The reason I am here?

A madman who spreads fear.

Bodies piled high as far as the eye can see,

Those caught as they tried to flee.

Enemy in sight

I pray my aim is true tonight.

The camp begins to stir

Time flies by as if ablur.

A hard thud to my chest,

I look down and see the hole in my vest.

My buddy looks at me with a tear,

I look at him and say “Do not fear”

Fight with all your might

For I will be waiting for you in VALHALLA tonight!

written by Darren 2-22-09

May 8, 2011 Posted by | Feelings from war and beyond | , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

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