darrenhardman

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Where are you? pt. 2

….. the wind rips the question from my lips with such force it pulls the very breath from my lungs.
In shock I watch as it gathers strength and speed. The skies turn black and my head begins to spin.
I feel as though I am losing control, losing consciousness.
First comes fear, the fear I may never live to find you. Next, comes dread as I dread the moment where I lose consciousness to the growing storm.
Finally, Panic engulfs me as I fight to stay awake in hopes of just catching a glimpse of you before I die.
Oh, how I could rest knowing at least you were coming for me.
The storm grows in strength. The winds pull the breath from me. The light in my eyes begin to dim.
As I slip from the Mountain top toward the valley far below. With my final breath I ask one last time, Where are you?
Out of the Storm winds is a touch on my shoulder soft as a dove.
With a calm whisper you say “I’ve always been right here my love.”

December 7, 2016 Posted by | Feelings from war and beyond | , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Will suicide eventually win?

When I was a kid I dreamed of enlisting and going to war.
I really didn’t know what I was headed for.
I enlisted and got the call to strap on gear and go over there.
I walked tall and thought that they should all be aware.
Once I landed I saw humanity at it’s worst.
It filled me with so many emotions I felt as if I were to burst.
After doing this twice I came home numb.
I was judged and called a liar by those that still have no clue.
They can’t direct their own lives and I’m the one who’s dumb?!
So many things and faces run through my head.
I try everyday to find something to keep my mind busy.
Sometimes those things are so great I wish I were dead.
Sometimes they’re just enough to only make me dizzy.
I try, I try and I try not to let the bad things in.
But all I can wonder is “Will suicide eventually win?”

June 13, 2013 Posted by | Feelings from war and beyond | , , , , , , , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment

Believe what you want….

You can believe what you want.
I can believe what I want.
This doesn’t make us enemies.
It just makes us….well, just different.
What makes us enemies is you trying to prove my belief is either wrong or less than yours!

May 28, 2013 Posted by | Feelings from war and beyond | , , , , , | Leave a comment

IF

If I were walking alone would you walk by my side?

If we were separated by a thousand miles would you meet me half way or just tell me not to bother?

If I were to cut all the pain out of me would there be enough of me left to live happy or would I just bleed to death?

If I called you friend would you be mine or just pretend?

 If I gave my last breath so you could have one more, what would you use it to say?
 If I died today would it impact your life or would you just forget about me tomorrow?
 If you looked in my eyes and saw that they were saying I love you what would you do about it?
 If I fell in love with you could you handle the intensity or would you just turn it against me?
 For a word that is comprised of only two letters it is a very powerful word.
 If you want to learn about yourself and others just ask……….IF.

May 29, 2011 Posted by | Feelings from war and beyond | , , , , , , , , | Leave a comment

That Kind of Man

I believe in GOD and manners.
I have fought for mine and others banners.
I can’t stand cheatin’ and stealin’.
I hate lying and crooked dealin’.
I say yes sir and yes ma’am.
My parents and my children have made me the man I am.
When I’m away and start to feel blue.
I look at her picture and feel a love that is true.
I’m a warrior and a fighter this I know.
And for a love like this there’s nothing i won’t do or a place I won’t go.
I am tough and I am strong,
but I am not perfect and can admit when I am wrong.
I will make a stand for what I believe and hold dear.
But when I am hurt i will cry a tear.
I hate when people turn their family to shame.
I can’t stand when people mess up and find someone else to blame.
I love with intensity and do what I can.
I love and believe these things because I am that kind of man.

May 7, 2011 Posted by | Feelings from war and beyond | , , , , , , , , , | 1 Comment